“Tom, you do not need to worry about Marsha.” Dale and Ben assured my dad as he was dying. “We will take care of the house, we will help her when it is time to sell it. You do not need to worry. We value you and Marsha and we want you to know we will take care of her.”

As I stood watching this father and son bless Dad, I thought I knew how my dad’s generosity over the years to people was coming back to him and to us.

Here’s a truth people have said, but maybe not in the clearest of terms. Let me flat our say it.

When you die, your “stuff” comes out.

Last lesson from my dad


Who you really were will be known. Not who you presented or hoped people would know, your secrets will see the light of day. You may be dead, but what you’ve left will be gone through. You will be known in a way you couldn’t be when you were alive because you are no longer your main PR guy or gal.

You think people won’t know about this or that. Ha! They will. When people have gone through your finances, the ways you invested your time, the type of relationships you fostered, the way you did your job day after day, week after week, year after year, what will be said of you?

If you summarized your whole life in one word, what would it be?

For Tom Young, it turns out that word is generous. (And “major smiler.”)

Those of you who had the pleasure of knowing him are nodding. Yup, he was a generous guy.

Well, I am here to tell you, you have no idea how generous, because I had no idea how generous and he raised me for Pete’s sake!

At the time of his death we were surprised to find out he had volunteered about 700 hours at The Action Center, helping people foster self-sufficiency. We knew he’d volunteered, but 700 hours?! Sure, you might be saying like I did, after he retired he had the time to give.

But this is what I’ve come to believe the past year as we’ve slowly dismantled parts of his life, it’s not about having the time or the resources, it’s about habits.

I have been stunned and humbled and proud as I’ve sorted through what I mistook to be his legacy: all the dang paper he left.

I’ve shared before, but the man never met a piece of paper he didn’t want to keep forever and ever amen. But were it not for all those boxes and piles and bags of paper stored here and there, I wouldn’t know what I know.

He gave hours and hours while working a full time job. It is hard not to speak in hyperbole, not because this is my dad I’m talking about, but because of the magnitude of the time he gave. I have gone through files representing years worth of being on the mission committee complete with the prayers notes he took and the financial investment the church made. There’s also serving as an elder and helping his aging aunts and uncles and helping this person or that one.

I could go on. But his generosity wasn’t just with his time, it was also with finances. We found a cancelled check from a time where money was very, very tight. He’d written a note saying it had been a hard year with health and business crises but that he and Mom believed in the cause and wanted to honor the commitment they had made.

When I came across the first time he chose sharing money with others when he could have reasonably kept it, I thought it was kind. Anyone can be kind on occasion, right? What do you start to make of the third or fifth time?

It’s wrong to think he was just generous nearer the end of his days when finances weren’t such a pressure. It’s easy to point to abundance and confuse it with generosity. What he had was value and habit and a true love of people.

His love of people comes through in the rough drafts he left behind. We unearthed three letters he wrote to his first granddaughter on, it seems her first and second birthday and the ways she’d enhanced his life. Just last week I found notes he’d taken to share at friend’s retirement party – the details and funny stories showed a generosity of noticing, really noticing. I’ve thrown away newspaper cuttings from the 1960s about his boss who died unexpectedly. Dad moved that clipping from job to job for the next 40 plus years.

I remember when I was a kid and I asked him how much he made a year (If you’ve been in China, you know this is a common question, I just didn’t know I was light years ahead of where I’d end up!). I’ll never forget his answer. He said, “I’m not going to tell you for two reasons. One, some of your classmates won’t be in the financial position we are. But more importantly, all you need to know as a child in this family is that we have enough. You will always be taken care of.”

This memory epitomizes Tom Young. Don’t focus on the wrong things, the things that will fade. Instead, live out of patterns that aren’t tossed by the whims of conditions.

We are told to do our good deeds in private lest anyone should boast. And this is right and good. The only down side to it is that by doing so, sometimes we forget we are capable of more than we might imagine.

I cannot imagine how devastating it would have been to discover Dad had complicated secrets, addictions we didn’t know of, or debts sprinkled here and there. I’ll be honest that in the past year, each of us has seen someone of Dad we hadn’t before. You can’t know everything. But what a sweet gift he gave to us that this year we have seen he was who we thought he was.

On this one-year anniversary of the last day I held my dad’s hand, I ask myself if there are habits I need to change? Are there some I want to foster more? Are there some I want to walk away from because of the ways they are forming me?

Dad, I am grateful that in death you continue to influence and shape me. As you know, but I will never weary of saying, I love you. And in your honor tonight we will eat your favs, Kraft Macaroni and Cheese and Pie.

Dad and C

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  1. Heather Steyn February 5, 2015 at 5:40 am - Reply

    Loving you guys extra today!

  2. Heather Steyn February 5, 2015 at 5:42 am - Reply

    Sending extra love your way today to all of you!

    The 4th Daughter

  3. Rhonda February 5, 2015 at 5:44 am - Reply

    Understand completely. Feb. 9th will be the 25th anniversary of my father’s passing. Hugs!

  4. Laura February 5, 2015 at 5:51 am - Reply

    I will be there in spirit. Beautifully written piece. I can’t believe its been one year already. We’ve now officially made it through all the firsts. Love you.

  5. nancy February 5, 2015 at 6:09 am - Reply

    Remembering you all with love and affection – very happy memories of a lovely man and treasured thoughts of you all at this anniversary, xx

  6. Tanya Marlow February 5, 2015 at 12:31 pm - Reply

    Such a lovely tribute – and challenge. Thank you.

  7. Nita Kulesa February 5, 2015 at 5:03 pm - Reply

    Okay . . . you made me tear up AGAIN! You’ve all been in my thoughts so much today as I recalled that precious hour or so we spent just before Tom died. We are so thankful to have known him and to have experience that generous spirit first hand!

  8. Elise February 5, 2015 at 10:39 pm - Reply

    So beautifully written Amy! What an awesome legacy he left! :) Enjoy your mac and cheese and pie!

  9. Mark Allman February 6, 2015 at 2:01 pm - Reply

    A great tribute to your dad!!

  10. Jenny Chapman February 6, 2015 at 4:23 pm - Reply

    Thank you, Amy, for sharing. What a legacy!

  11. Libing chen February 8, 2015 at 2:21 am - Reply

    You have a great dad!

  12. daryle parker February 8, 2015 at 6:54 pm - Reply

    Thank you Amy for honoring your Dad and sharing with us. You are blessed.

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